Tomorrow is Mother's Day. Mother's Day. Every year this is the day I spend focusing on my mom. In the days leading up to tomorrow, I would normally buy a gift for my mom and plan a lunch with my sisters to honor our mom. It's a day I've never celebrated for myself. A day I've wished were mine to celebrate. Every year I've sat in church and clapped for the Mothers as they stand and are recognized for their greatest accomplishments. I've watched Mothers accept flowers or small gifts from those they love. I've watched Mothers on this day through eyes yearning to be "just like them."
As I gave the girls their usual Saturday evening bath tonight, I realized tomorrow is My Day. Mother's Day! A day I finally get to celebrate for myself. It's surreal. The girls were crawling around after their bath being silly, as usual, and repeatedly hollering "Momma!" I am their momma. I love them more than I could ever imagine loving two little bitty humans.
They give kisses now. They're pulling themselves up to furniture and toys. They're gaining weight (barely!). They're walking their stiff-legged walk with help of anyone that will be patient with them. If you don't mind turtling it from one place to the next they'll hold both your hands and giggle while they practice their walking skills. One has this new move she constantly does, it's like she's making a bridge with her body, standing bent over with her feet and hands on the ground while looking upside down through her legs. She cracks herself up and makes everyone in the room laugh. The other one sings sweet songs to you if you sit quietly and listen--but be warned, she will sing long songs, all in the same tone, using one syllable. They're changing so much, every day, and growing up so quickly. They're still my teeny tiny girls, but they have huge personalities.
Tomorrow I get to celebrate being their mom. I won't get flowers from a husband. I won't get a card. I won't be spoiled for a day. But I'll know I'm a mom. I'll look at my beautiful twins and see all their accomplishments. I'll stand in church and not have to wonder when it's my turn. Tomorrow is Mother's Day. Tomorrow is My Day.
